i was hanging out with ash and morgan and we were going to some kind of festival. morgan insisted on bringing her chair that was super heavy and i had to lift it over this rope and a stream. i remember that the chair went into the water, but i can't remember if i was able to get it out of the water. there were people everywhere.
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i was hanging out with gretchen at her place. we were sitting outside and listening to the music we could hear from festival down the street from her house. so we decided to go. we walk across this swampy field to a fence where we have to swim across a small lake. i dogie paddle to the other side making sure my head doesn't get wet. the minute we get to the other side, the music ends. we bump into mike (one of the guys i met at the folk fest) and talk for a bit and he tells us we've missed the show.
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i remember being in the hallway of a futuristic apartment. that's all i remember of that one.
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i've been dreaming about water and snow a lot.
dreams August 28, 2007
crazy dreams… August 27, 2007
i was at a restaurant or bar or something. i was sitting off to the side when this gorgeous girl picks me out of the crowd and pulls me onto the dance floor. we begin dancing, but it's more like flying. one of our arms and one of our legs are intertwined and we are leaning backwards in such a way that together, we look like a butterfly. there is nothing sexual about the encounter, but somehow, it's completely erotic. as the song ends, i stand up feeling dazed and giddy, almost high, and i realize that everyone is staring at us slack-jawed.
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i'm in an old house, in the study. all of the doors are closed, and for some reason, i never even consider leaving the room. there are a few other people around. there is a guy passed out in the corner and everyone seems to be kind of freaking out. the feeling is very apocalyptic. there is a guy who is pouring wine out everywhere. i realize that something is on fire, so i grab the bottle from him to put out the fire only to realize that it didn't matter because the thing on fire was in the fire place, which is one of those huge ones you can walk into. i turn to ask him what the hell he is doing but he is unresponsive. i realize he is also breaking all of the crystal wine glasses. he seems to have purpose, but i can't figure out what it is. i pour some wine into a glass to drink just to realize that the glass is broken.
oh yeah, and i think i had another dream with snow.
agave… August 27, 2007
So apparently, agave syrup is not as good for you as we've been led to believe. What a shock that the food industry would lie to us. not.
http://www.rawfoods.com/articles/agave.html
242322 August 26, 2007
i can't remember any more than this, but i just remembered that i had a dream involving snow last night.
August 24, 2007
I have always loved this!!
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All I really need to know about how to live and what to do and how to be I learned in kindergarten. Wisdom was not at the top of the graduate school mountain, but there in the sandpile at Sunday School. These are the things I learned. Share everything. Play fair. Don’t hit people. Put things back where you found them. Clean up your own mess. Don’t take things that aren’t yours. Say you’re sorry when you hurt somebody. Wash your hands before you eat. Flush. Warm cookies and cold milk are good for you. Live a balanced life. Learn some and think some and draw and paint and sing and dance and play and work every day some. Take a nap every afternoon. When you go out into the world watch out for traffic, hold hands, and stick together. Be aware of wonder. Remember the little seed in the Styrofoam cup – the roots go down and the plant goes up and nobody really knows how or why, but we are all like that. Goldfish and hamsters and white mice and even the little seed in the Styrofoam cup – they all die – so do we. And the remember the Dick-and-Jane books and the first work you learned – the biggest work of all – LOOK. Everything you need to know is in there somewhere, the Golden Rule and love and basic sanitation, ecology and politics and equality and sane living. Take anyone of those items and extrapolate it into sophisticated adult terms and apply it to your family life or your work or your government or your world and it holds true and clear and firm. Think what a better world it would be if we all - the whole world – had cookies and milk about three o’clock every afternoon and then lay down with our blankies for a nap. Or if all governments had as a basic policy to always put things back where they found them and to clean up their own mess. And it is still true, no matter how old you are – when you go out into the world, it is best to hold hands and stick together.
by Robert Fulghum
philly folk fest August 21, 2007
awesome, awesome, awesome.
we got there bright and early thursday morning. iana had already set up the tents so our job was to put up the common area tent and decorate.
we had 2 days of intense heat, then one day of perfect weather ending with lots of rain. the first 2 days were summer days, then we had a nice spring day, ending with fall weather 
friday night we managed to go out and find the best drum circle i've ever had the pleasure of dancing to. it was incredible. i danced for something like 4 or 5 hours straight. there was a guy playing bass which just made the experience.
due to the intense amount of dancing, the enormous amount of alcohol i imbibed, and the 3 hours of sleep i got, i was completely sleep deprived the next day. i spent most of the day feeling foggy and surreal, but it was still a good day overall. we watched some pretty good nusic. i also saw jugglers, rope dancing and a trapeze act.
sunday i woke with the most horrendous cramps i've had in years. i was basically doubled over in pain for half the day. which was too bad because we saw some incredible music that i couldn't appreciate as much as i would have if i'd been feeling better. we sat in the rain watching a celtic band that was incredible. and then we sat in the common area soaked to the bone for the rest of the day. it was type of rain that made it impossible for you to ever really get dry.
we woke up monday at 7 at broke camp, which was much easier than setting up. leisel and i had everything packed up by 12:30 and we were off.
i still have to go to her house today to unload the cars… in the rain.
i can't wait for next years fest.
240759 August 14, 2007
when i'm eating something hemingway decides that he likes, as i'm going to put it in my mouth, he'll actually loop his paw around my wrist and try to bring it to himself. it's so damn cute that it makes it damn impossible to get mad at him.
240486 August 14, 2007
These days, most days I am okay, but every now and then, when I'm alone and I'm thinking… well…
Tom helped me move my mothers bed into the garage last night. The most random things make me sad. I've moved her bed around before and didn't bother me, but putting it into the garage was different. It's the things that are final. Putting things in bags to give to purple heart, putting her bed in the garage so it'll be easier for someone to come pick up. Those are the things that are the hardest. Sometimes it feels so hard to pick up the pieces and move on with my life, but that's what I do each day. I put on a happy face and try and make the best of it even though sometimes it feels difficult just to breathe.
I've had this vague awareness of something that I do that was magnified for me tonight. When I tell someone what I'm going through, I minimalize it. It's a defense mechanism, a type of emotional shield. I figure the alternative isn't any good. I can't take the looks of pity any more, not that I could right after it happened either and I don't want to start crying and traumatize the poor person I'm talking to.
I am okay. I'm just trying to sort through, do some emotional weeding you might say. I'm going to start journaling my em
last sunday August 7, 2007
So I went to the warped tour thing with Tom on Sunday. We met a couple of his friends there who were both very cool. We got there just in time to at least hear the band that we were really there to see (Coheed and Cambria). Afterwards, we went and made dinner and watched a movie. It was a fun day.
