sia – <i>breathe me</i> November 27, 2005

and i love this one too…

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

tori amos – leather November 27, 2005

i love this song!!!!

Look I'm standing naked before you
Don't you want more then my sex
I can scream as loud as your last one
But I can't claim innocence

Oh God
Could it be the weather
Oh God
Why am I here
If love Isn't forever
And it's not the weather
Hand me my leather

I could just pretend that you love me
The night would lose all sense of fear
But why do I need you to love me
When you can't Hold what I hold dear

Oh God
Could it be the weather
Oh God
Why am I here
If love Isn't forever
And it's not the weather
Hand me my leather

I almost ran over an angel
He had a nice big fat cigar
“In a sense” he said “You're alone here
So if you jump you best jump far”

Oh God
Could it be the weather
Oh God
Why am I here
If love Isn't forever
And it's not the weather
Hand me my leather

moving?? November 26, 2005

so it looks like i may moving in a month!! i'll be closer to the city, closer to my boyfriend, closer to my best friend, closer to the coffee house i love so much… yippee. and i won't be paying that much more. my boyfriends family owns the building so they are giving me a break on rent. of course this means i can never be late on rent either though!!

138546 November 26, 2005

it's eff-ing cold out there!!

mom November 18, 2005

my mom finally had her surgery on wednesday! YAY!! she's in pain, but doing just fine.

i want to go next week… November 10, 2005

shampoo was sooooooo much fun tonight.

a cute boy hit on me tonight. he was sweet. considering… it made me feel pretty good. it was kind of funny acutally. he tried to kiss me and after he left, the boy next to me told how well i handled it and how painful it was to watch.

Taurus – Nov. 9th, 2005 November 9, 2005

alright, my horoscope has been eerily on for the past few days

Some people are very good at tossing pancakes. Others have
perfected the art of sharply tugging on a tablecloth and pulling it away,
leaving the crockery and cutlery intact. Both these processes require a degree
of courage. They get easier with practice but they never completely lose their
unnerving quality. You have made some smart moves in the past. You now have to
make a similar one. Don't think too long and hard about it. If it really needs
to be done, just go right ahead and do it.

Today, you'll realize that a clean slate brings with it
the chance for a new beginning. You can't help but feel excited and optimistic
for what the future holds. Your goals are clear and your mind is sharp, how can
you not succeed? One word of caution, however: take care not to let your
fantasies run away with you. You want to be sure to keep your eyes on your goals
- which are easily obtainable – rather than wasting time and energy chasing pipe
dreams.

oh yeah… November 9, 2005

i'm hennaing my hair too. `_~

painting the town black… November 9, 2005

it's goth night after all…
okay, so i'm going to a club in the city tonight with a few friends. yay!! i haven't been out clubbing in some time and i need a fun night of craziness. i'm just trying on outfits, not even out the door yet, and i've already ripped my stockings. oh well, as i've already mentioned, it is goth night, so i should probably wear them anyway. it still sucks though, i love these stockings. they are white and are decorated and i don't know if i kind find these again.

136632 November 9, 2005

sometimes love just isn't enough to sustain a relationship. i don't know if you are capable of giving me what i need and i don't know if i am capable of giving you what you need. what i do know is this, being with you makes me feel badly about me. i feel like i am always waiting for the other shoe to drop because i can feel the darkness pouring off you like sweat. half the time i feel like you're waiting for me to go away. 'have i been a good enough boyfriend. do i owe you more than that?? can i tell you to leave now or do i have to give you more' that's so fucking unhealthy.