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Check list… July 29, 2004

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnselene @ 9:57 pm

Taken from
This is very cool, but very time consuming!

The idea is to bold the things you've done and add five of your own to the end, three of which you've done.

01. Buy everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swim with wild dolphins stingrays
03. Climb a mountain
04. Take a Ferrari for a test drive
05. See the Pyramids at night
06. Hold a tarantula
07. Take a candlelit bath with someone
08. Say 'I love you' and mean it (quite recently actually)
09. Hug a tree
10. Do a striptease
11. Do a bungee or parachute jump
12. Visit Paris
13. Watch a lightning storm at sea
14. Clean behind the fridge
15. Stay up all night long, and watch the sun rise.
16. Ask a question you've always been too embarrassed to ask.
17. See the Northern Lights
18. Go to a huge sports game – football, rugby, baseball, American football, etc
19. Create your own masterpiece
20. Grow and eat your own vegetables.
21. Touch an iceberg
22. Have a work relationship
23. Sleep under the stars
24. Compromise
25. Change a baby's nappy/diaper
26. Take a trip in a hot air balloon
27. Watch a meteor shower
28. Get drunk on champagne
29. Take a luxury holiday Rhine river cruise totally awesome if you get the chance
30. Give more than you can afford to charity
31. Look up at the night sky through a telescope.
32. Have an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
33. Have a food fight
34. Bet on a winning horse
35. Take a sick day when you're not ill
36. Get a pet
37. Ask a stranger out
38. Have a snowball fight
39. Photocopy your bottom on the office photocopier
40. Scream as loudly as you possibly can
41. Hold a lamb
42. Enact a favorite fantasy
43. Take a midnight skinny dip
44. Hear the words 'I love you'
45. Fly on Concorde
46. Take an ice cold bath (I did this one tonight)
47. Have a meaningful conversation with a beggar.
48. See a total eclipse
49. Ride a roller coaster
50. Hit a home run
51. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days (I just put out an whole store's worth of beads in two days)
52. Dance like a fool and not care who's looking (it's been a while since I've done this actually
53. Adopt an accent for an entire day
54. Visit the birthplace of you ancestors (Um, which ones – technically, I'm doing that now)
55. Have a grand romance with costumes and everything
56. Made up a screenname to stalk someone.
57. Gone shopping for no reason.
58. Actually feel happy about your life, even for just a moment.
59. Just be held (all the time these days)
60. Have an adventure where nothing goes as planned. (quite often actually)
61. Kissed someone you truly wanted to kiss (I do this almost every day)
62. Went clubbing and thought to yourself “I could out-dance them if i wanted to” (guilty)
63. Called your relatives by their relationship
64. Have two hard drives for your computer
65. Cuddled
66. Visited all 50 states
67. Loved your job
68. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
69. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
70. Have amazing friends
71. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
72. Swim during a formal
73. Stolen a sign
74. Backpacked in Europe
75. Taken a road-trip
76. Rock climbing
77. Nose piercing
78. Midnight walk on the beach
79. Sky diving
80. Visit Ireland (I've always wanted to go)
81. Saw what you wanted and did all it took to seize it.
82. Fell in love then fell harder and faster from heartbreak.
83. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had lunch/ dinner with them
84. Visit and/or tour Japan.
85. Benchpress your own weight.
86. Stolen from your parents
87. Alphabatized your records/CDs (I use to do this…)
89. Pretended to be a superhero
90. Sang karaoke
91. Made someone cry for no good reason
92. Lounged around in bed all day.
93. Posed nude in front of a room full of strangers.
94. Dressed sexy for no reason.
95. Got it on to “Let's Get It On” by Marvin Gaye
96. Kissed in the rain
97. Played in the mud
98. Played in the rain
99. Gone to a drive-in theater
100. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it…
101. Visited the Great Wall of China
102. Fell in love with a job that has nothing to do with the degree you're pursuing
103. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog.
104. Dropped Windows in favor of something better.
105. Started a business.
106. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken.
107. Toured ancient sites around the Mediterranean
108. Taken karate.
109. Swordfought for the honor of a woman.
110. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight.
111. Gotten married
112. Been in a movie.
113. LARPed
114. Loved someone you shouldn't have.
115. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy.
116. Gotten divorced
117. Had sex at work
118. Surprised yourself with a talent you didn't know you had
119. Been to Macchu Picchu
120. Gone without food for 5 days
121. Never left the continental United States.
122. Made cookies from scratch.
123. Won first prize in a costume contest.
124. Ridden a gondola in Venice.
125. Gotten a tattoo
126. Got another tattoo the next day because you didn't feel balanced
127. Find that the texture of some materials can turn you on
128. Rafted the Snake River
129. Blazed it up at Burning Man
130. Gotten flowers for no reason.
131. Masturbated in a public place.
132. Gotten so drunk you don't remember anything.
133. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug.
134. Traveled the world.
135. Performed onstage with a famous symphony orchestra
136. Been to Las Vegas
137. Met Madonna
138. Recorded music
139. Eaten Shark
140. Had a one night stand
141. Gone to Thailand
142. Courage to speak my mind
143. Saw Robert Smith and Siouxsie live. (I'm going to see The Cure for the first time on Sunday)
144. Bought a house
145. Earned my degree
146. Broke my neck
147. Been in a combat zone
148. Buried my father
149. Earned a *living* through my creativity
150. Visit the remaining continents on my list
151. Had my pubic hair waxed off
152. Been on a cruise ship
153. Speak more than one language fluently
154. Worn see-through clothes in public
155. Bounced a check (not intentionally)
156. Performed in Rocky Horror
157. Moved over 1000 miles by yourself
158. Been to art school
159. Read – and understood – your credit report
160. Raised children.
161. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
162. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
163. Created and named your own constellation of stars
164. Bucked stigma or trends to follow your heart
165. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
166. Found out something significant that your ancestors did.
167. Called or written your Congressman
168. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
169. …more than once? (well, I did move back. but it was 8 years later, everything here is different than it was)
170. Run the Golden Gate Bridge
171. “Sang” loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you know someone is looking
171. Had an abortion (or your female partner did)
172. Had plastic surgery
173. Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived.
174. Wrote articles for a large publication.
175. Lost over 100 pounds
176. Held someone while they were having a flashback
177. Flown an airplane
178. Petted a stingray
179. Broken someone's heart
180. Helped an animal give birth
181. Been fired or laid off from a job you loved.
182. Won money on a T.V. game show
183. Broken a bone
184. Killed a human being see #171
185. Had a threesome (or moresome)
186. Ridden a motorcycle
187. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph
188. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
189. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
190. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
191. Ridden a horse
192. Had major surgery
193. Had sex on a moving train
194. Had a snake as a pet
195. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
196. Slept through an entire flight (takeoff, flight, and landing)
197. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of two consecutive days.
198. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
199. Visited all 7 continents
200. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
201. Eaten kangaroo meat
202. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
203. Been a sperm or egg donor
204. Eaten sushi
205. Been part of a group that requires secrecy of its members
206. Maintained 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year
207. Gotten a tattoo to dedicate yourself to your deity of choice
208. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
209. Gotten someone fired for their actions
210. Gone back to school (I'll be doing that soon)
211. Parasailed
212. Changed your name
213. Petted a cockroach
214. Eaten fried green tomatoes.
215. Read the Iliad (I never did finish it)
216. Selected one “important” author who you missed in school, and read, just to see what all the fuss was about
217. Dined in a restaurant and stole silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them…
218. …and got 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you.
219. Taught yourself an art from scratch.
220. Labia piercing.
221. Dreamed so vividly that you're unsure whether it's a memory or a dream.
222. Gotten lost driving on purpose so that you can spend more time with the person in your car on a dizzy starry night.
223. Speaking of, driven at night in a convertible with the top down, far from city lights
224. Given birth without anaesthesia.
225. Decided to run away with someone you loved more than life itself
226. Tattooed yourself.
227. Gotten a tattoo on public skin i.e. hands, face, or neck.
228. Tattooed someone's genitals.
229. Are what you wanted to be when you grew up.
230. Own over a 2000 book library.
231. Forgiven someone even when you were still hurt
232. Painted a house
233. Been to Mardi Gras in New Orleans
234. Voted in a presidential election
235. Ridden the Flying Dumbo ride at Disneyworld
236. watched a lunal eclipse at Pennsic
237. Gone to the Black Rose Ball
238. Get cat-napped on a regular basis
239. bark like a dog in a crowded place (because you felt like it, not from a medical condition.
240. find exotic recipes and use your friends and family as guinea pigs (I use to do this all of the time. It's been a while since I've had the time or energy though)
241. had sex in the window so everyone outside could see what you are doing
242. On that note — had sex outside
243. Opened a bead store
244. Been to New Orleans when it wasn't mardi gras
245. Drawn/painted a self portrait
246. Given a pet away (It was a heartbreaking thing to do, but she was peeing on everything!)

 

More Beads… July 29, 2004

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnselene @ 9:46 pm

Ahhh… All of the beads are out!!! Yay! Now we just have to get the rest of the store in order. Ugh. I can't wait until this store is all put together and ready for the public. I can't keep up this pace for much longer. It's wearin' me out!

 

<u>Innocuous</u> July 29, 2004

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnselene @ 9:03 pm

Remember me?
What I use to be?
When the screaming
and the shattered plates were ritual.
When a bue banky
was the only comfort
for this small entity.
This innocuous.
When pixies were real
and gnomes came out to play.
Stirring up potions and talking to trees.
Remember me?
What I use to be.

I wrote a poem many years ago that was much longer than this one, but this all I can remember of it. I wrote the poem for a creative writing class. It was something I was very proud of, it was the best poem I had ever written. I made the mistake of showing it to my father. He was appalled that I had shown it to people. you know, we have to keep our dirty laundry hidden from the world. God forbid someone might see how crazy we are. Anyway…

 

Happy Birthday Jason!! July 28, 2004

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnselene @ 8:57 pm

Happy Birthday to

I hope your day is awesome!!!!

I wish I could be in LA to help you celebrate!

 

TAURUS (Apr 21 – May 21) 7/08/04 July 28, 2004

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnselene @ 8:35 pm

How can you just 'make it up as you go along' when there is so much at stake? What if you spontaneously head off in completely the wrong direction? Ought you not to be poring over a map, carefully creating an agenda, diligently researching a full set of options? You would be no more likely to reach a foolproof conclusion, even if you were to take all of these precautions. You are in unfamiliar territory. You have to have faith. You may not have a specific, relevant experience to draw on, but you do have knowledge of times in the past when your intuition has served you well. Trust that memory, and then trust yourself

Wow!! I can't believe how dead on these have been!

The bead store thing is going much better these days. Deborah has calmed down tremendously. She's not micro-managing me anymore, and she's stopped second guessing me. I don't know what happened to bring about these changes, but boy am I grateful for them!! I'm still running around like a crazy person, trying my best to make sure we can comfortably open on Monday. Yes, this coming Monday. She really made sure we had our work cut out for us. But things are really starting to come together. We put out our first table of beads today! Phew. I didn't even stop for lunch. I was too nerve-wracked to even think about eating. We should be able to put out a good bit of the inventory tomorrow, which will make both of us feel a lot better. I told them that these bowls would be too small and I was right. It's great for now. It makes it look as though we have more beads than we really do, but as the inventory begins to grow, she's going to regret using such small bowls. I mentioned this to Todd a while ago. He said he'd switch them out in the future if that needed to be done, but I am not sure he's really taken into account what this will entail. Oh well. I've done my job the best I can. It's their store and if they don't want to take my advice, there isn't anything I can do about that. I am satisfied knowing that I have done and continue to do my best! I think she needs to spend an additional $5K to be where she really wants to be. I guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens.

Ooh… most of my jewelry has sold at the other store in Collegeville. The last time I spoke with her was a couple of months ago. At that point she'd only sold one thing. I went and picked up two checks from her today, and she'll have another one for me the end of this month. Heh, I was going to pull my stuff out of her store, now I need to make more pieces. I need some more for her and I'll need to make some for the bead store. It's all looking pretty good.

On a Brian note, things are awesome and getting better every day!

 

22434 July 27, 2004

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnselene @ 2:02 am

Why am I still awake?

I really should be sleeping now, but I'm just not ready damn it!

 

July 25th Taurus July 27, 2004

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnselene @ 1:11 am

Today's planetary energies

An emotional upset between you and a partner, probably a business partner, could lead to a re-evaluation of your career and its goals. You might consider taking off in an entirely new direction, probably on your own. As this is not the day to actually decide anything, consider all your options. By tomorrow, the upset will have blown over and you could want to stay where you are. Hang in there.

Damn, I don't know how I could have missed this one! This is exactly how I've been feeling since Friday. Technically, she's not my partner, but she's the closest I've ever come…

hmmm….

 

Monday, 26th July 2004 — TAURUS (Apr 21 – May 21) July 26, 2004

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnselene @ 10:01 pm

Even if you really don't like a situation, it is marginally better when you fully understand why you do not like it. Then, you can at least reach some sort of a conclusion about where you stand. How, though, can you do that when you are not even sure how you feel or what you think? Your opinions keep changing. Your ideas keep altering. That's making it hard for you to plan and hard too, for you to enjoy yourself. Here is the formula for clarity and comfort. Just work on the assumption that all is fine. Then refuse, for anything less than dramatic and convincing proof to the contrary, to consider any other verdict!

Today's planetary energies

Today you might find yourself feeling a little bit gloomy without knowing why. There probably is no real reason – your biorhythms simply may be low. This is a good day to treat yourself to a concert, play, or movie, or perhaps buy yourself something you've been wanting for a long time. You're doing well and are likely to continue to do so for a while yet. Hang in there, and enjoy yourself!

This whole thing is dead on. It fits my bead store situation perfectly…

 

A Folkie, huh? July 26, 2004

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnselene @ 12:40 am

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You are a Folkie. Good for you.

What kind of Sixties Person are you?
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George Bush's Resume…. July 26, 2004

Filed under: Uncategorized — dawnselene @ 12:07 am

RESUME
George W. Bush
President of the United States of America
The White House, USA

EDUCATION AND EXPERIENCE LAW ENFORCEMENT:

I was arrested in Kennebunkport, Maine in 1976 for driving under the influence of alcohol. I pleaded guilty, paid a fine, and my driver's license was suspended for 30 days.

My Texas driving record has been “lost” and is not available.

MILITARY:

I joined the Texas Air National Guard and went AWOL.

I refused to take a drug test or answer any questions about my drug use. By joining the Texas Air National Guard, I was able to avoid combat duty in Vietnam.

COLLEGE:

I graduated from Yale University.

I was a C student and a cheerleader.

PAST WORK EXPERIENCE:

I ran for U.S. Congress and lost.

I began my career in the oil business in Midland, Texas in 1975. I bought an oil company but couldn't find any oil in Texas. The company went bankrupt shortly after I sold all my stock.

I bought the Texas Rangers baseball team in a sweetheart deal that took land using taxpayer money.

With the help of my father and our right-wing friends in the oil industry (including Enron CEO Ken Lay), I was elected Governor of Texas.

ACCOMPLISHMENTS AS GOVERNOR:

I changed Texas pollution laws to favor power and oil companies,
making Texas the most polluted state in the Union.

During my tenure, Houston replaced Los Angeles as the most smog-ridden city in America.

I cut taxes and bankrupted the Texas treasury to the tune of billions in borrowed money.

I set the record for the most executions by any Governor in American history.

With the help of my brother, the Governor of Florida, and my father's appointments to the Supreme Court, I became President after losing by over 500,000 votes.

ACCOMPLISHMENTS AS PRESIDENT:

I invaded and occupied two countries at a continuing cost of over one billion dollars per week.

I spent the U.S. surplus and effectively bankrupted the U.S. Treasury.

I shattered the record for the largest annual deficit in U.S. history.

I set an economic record for most private bankruptcies filed in any 12-month period.

I set the all-time record for the biggest drop in the history of the U.S. stock market.

I am the first president in U.S. history to enter office with a criminal record.

I set the all-time record for most days on vacation in any one year period. After taking-off the entire month of August, I presided over the worst security failure in U.S. history.

I am supporting development of a nuclear “Tactical Bunker Buster,” a WMD, and breaking the nuclear arms treaty.

In my State Of The Union Address, I lied about our reasons for attacking Iraq, then blamed the lies on our British friends.

I set the record for most campaign fund-raising trips by a U.S. president.

In my first year in office over 2-million Americans lost their jobs and that trend continues every month.

I set the all-time record for most foreclosures in a 12-month period.

I appointed more convicted criminals to administration than any president in U.S. history.

I set the record for least amount of press conferences for any president since the advent of television.

I presided over the biggest energy crisis in U.S. history and refused to intervene when corruption involving the oil industry was revealed.

I presided over the highest gasoline prices in U.S. history.

I have cut health care benefits for war veterans and support a cut in duty benefits for active duty troops and their families — in war time.

I have set the all-time record for most people worldwide to protest me simultaneously in public venues (15 million people) shattering the record for protest against any person in the history of mankind.

I've broken more international treaties than any president in U.S. history.

I am proud that the members of my cabinet are the richest of any administration in U.S. history. My “poorest millionaire,” Condoleezza Rice, has a Chevron oil tanker named after her.

I am the first president in U.S. history to order an unprovoked, pre-emptive attack and the military occupation of a sovereign nation. I did so against the will of the United Nations, millions of U.S. citizens, and the world community.

I created the Ministry of Homeland Security, the largest bureaucracy in the history of the United States government.

I am the first president in U.S. history to have the United Nations remove the U.S. from the Human Rights Commission.

I withdrew the U.S. from the World Court of Law.

I refused to allow inspectors access to U.S. prisoners of war (detainees) and thereby have refused to abide by the Geneva Convention.

I am the first president in history to refuse United Nations election inspectors (during the 2002 U.S. election).

I am the all-time U.S. and world record-holder for receiving the most corporate campaign donations. My largest lifetime campaign contributor, and one of my best friends, Kenneth Lay, presided over the largest corporate bankruptcy fraud in U.S. history.

My political party used the Enron private jets and corporate attorneys to assure my success with the U.S. Supreme Court during my election decision.

I have protected my friends at Enron and Halliburton against investigation or prosecution.

More time and money was spent investigating the Monica Lewinsky affair than has been spent investigating one of the biggest corporate rip-offs in history.

I garnered the most sympathy for the U.S. after the World Trade Center attacks and less than a year later made the U.S. the most hated country in the world, the largest failure of diplomacy in world history.

I am first president in history to have a majority of Europeans (71%) view my presidency as the biggest threat to world peace and security.

I changed the U.S. policy to allow convicted criminals to be awarded government contracts.

I am working hard to get jobs at fast-food restaurants to be classified as “Manufacturing” so I can “manufacture” phony numbers on an increase in manufacturing employment.

I have so far failed to fulfill my pledge to bring Osama Bin Laden to justice.

RECORDS AND REFERENCES:

All records of my tenure as Governor of Texas are now in my father's library, sealed, and unavailable for public view.

All records of SEC investigations into my insider trading and my bankrupt companies are sealed in secrecy and unavailable for public view.

All records or minutes from meetings that I, or my Vice-President, attended regarding public energy policy are sealed in secrecy and unavailable for public review.

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Please consider my experience when voting in 2004!